the little things

Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 12:57 AM

argh.

saying you can do it is one thing, and really taking action is seriously another.

i suddenly realise how much bullshit i can say before i entered jc.
i felt so 'proud' of myself man.
i seriously thought i would be fine with the two years in it despite knowing that i'm an ultimate slacker ttm.
but then after my first day in tpjc, it really sucked.
50% may be due to the first day blues, 30% due to the fact that i didnt get in mjc.
the remaining will be most probably the boring subjects, pe and what not.

i definitely know that im being stupid if i were to appeal out because i will not be able to get into university.
but if i were to pursue being an interior designer, i see no point in going jc because apparently, from what i know, no university in singapore offers that.
but then again if i were to take accountancy, i would have to stay in jc and mug my ass off, like literally. because in order to be sure i got in, i must get at least 3As, or maybe even 4.
i know nothing about the chances of getting As, but it may be easy if i'm hardworking enough.
but given my o lvl experience, i can totally believe that i will end up getting at most 2As only.

i have also thought that all this crap about going to poly is temporary.
maybe i will like it in jc in few months time.
but i'm certain i will die! in these few months.
i will just feel fucking stressed and restricted.

but then again if i were to go to poly, i will have to sit through the whole orientation shit again, which sucks ttm.
and what if i get the same feeling as i'm having now?
if this really happens, i will just hate myself and i dont know what.

this decision making stuffs and adapting to new environment shit is ________. cant find a word.

and i tot im over sec sch life.
but hey! if you're in jc, you are totally not!
and getting to know a whole bunch of new people just makes it worse.

wow maybe if i really stayed in jc, this whole post would be crap and i would feel totally embarrassed by this.

oh, and if i were to appeal, i still have to sit through the whole of next week in jc. isnt it pointless too!?!?!?!? ARGH.

this shit destroyed my entire day. HATE IT WHEN I CANT MAKE DECISIONS.

Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 9:08 PM

Hi.

I seriously think that I have loads of barely touched books and I'll be glad to give it away. If any of you need anything, you guys can text me. Haha.
Here's the list of books I have:
Distinction in eng compre
Breakthrough summary writing
Challenging eng essays
O lvl classified bio
O lvl classified sci(chem)
Longman complete guide to o lvl sci(chem)
Ss tys
O lvl classified ss
Bio tys
Amath topic by topic
Emath topic by topic
Sci(phy) textbook. Good as new

In fact, most are good as new. Hahaha.

Friday, January 15, 2010 @ 2:50 PM

mjc!

this is weird, but i dont know why im kind of exciting to go to mjc.
hahhaahha. maybe becos i really feel like studying now or something.
hahahaha.

sian, who knows i might not even get in ):

Saturday, January 09, 2010 @ 5:50 AM

dead blog dead blog dead blog.
heeeee, but im not gonna do anything about it soon. :D

Friday, January 01, 2010 @ 9:58 PM

2010

don't really like the start of 2010,
right from 12midnight till now.

can totally predict a bad year ahead D: